Ponder

I am an imperfect person.  sometimes i forget. i think nothing i do gets on people's nerves.  nothing i say hurts the feelings of others. i am flawless. but lets be real, thats a lie. ways i have realized i have been wrong in the last few hours:

1. willfully misunderstanding my sister

2. being prideful i knew something my mother did not

3.  thinking i am intelligent enough to read the screwtape letters in an afternoon.

the first two, pretty obvious.  but that last one, really surprised me.  its prideful (im noticing a trend... something to work on), but i really thought i'd be finished with it by now.  its not very long.  and it was all i really had planned to do today. and usually i read pretty fast.  

but wow.  im only about 1/3 of the way in.  the language is excellent.  rich, descriptive vocabulary- which i love.  but i've really had to slow down, and think, and be all contemplative- which i also love. but im really struggling. struggling to understand and absorb the words from the page.  and its not that im uninterested.  im so interested its frustrating. thank you c.s. lewis for overwhelming my brain.  i think im going to need to re-read it when i finally finish to catch the things im sure i am missing. 

but i have never loved reading more than i did today.  and im a nursing major.  im supposed to read a ton of stuff all of the time. but this reading is different.  its mentally stimulating.  and takes all of my concentration. and half an hour goes by and i've only flipped a few pages.  and its wonderful. 

i love spring break.