Adventures?

I love adventures.  All kinds of them.  I see life as an adventure, and this part, the studying-for-finals-so-i-keep-my-gpa-high part, is not very exciting.  

but thats only the sub-polt.  

the real action is what goes on before and after the final exams; the last conversations with people before they scatter for summer vacation, the sunburns in the park, the palpable anticipation for the summer and for what lies beyond.  the new year.  

this entire year has been building up to this moment:  ra training and hp sleeping on my couch only because heron didn't have hot water,  late night conversations as a friendship was built,  recruitment late nights and tears, a surprising friendship that turned out to be exactly what i needed, lonely afternoons,  connections,  new friends,  misunderstandings made right, discovering jk and being vulnerable, intentional coffee dates, learning patience, being disappointed and hopeful in the same afternoon, feeling every emotion, cutting ties, seeing potential, and at the end of all that knowing that i have people in my life who love me and who i love in return.  real love, the kind that's real and i've rarely found outside the bonds of family.

it hasn't been easy or always fun, but this year was what it was and it brought me here.  and i like what i see.  too far in to the lives of my friends to even think about finding my way out.  but i don't want out, i want farther in.   

"it takes some fears to make you trust. life is wonderful, life goes full circle" jason mraz