Somethin for me...

The way you look, the way you laugh,

the way you love with all you have,

there ain't nothing bout you, that don't do something for me,

the way you kiss, the way you cry,

the way you move when you walk by, 

there ain't nothing bout you, that don't do something for me.

-Brooks and Dunn

i LoVe this song right now.  I dont really know why, cause im not a brooks and dunn fan.  but i find myself humming it as i go about my day.  who doesnt want a love like that?

I want a lot of things.  a career i find fulfilling, to see the world, to go on adventures, to do well in Chemistry, and the list goes on.  i want all of them, and it is up to me to make them happen.  I have the control.  i can pursue my career by studying hard and i can plan my own adventures.  i can focus early in the morning and succeed in chem.  I dont need to rely or wait on anyone.  except not all of life will fit nicely within my plans.  i dont have control of the actions of the people around me.  i cant make their decisions for them, i cant read their thoughts, and i cant know what they will do. so many questions. all i can do is wait and then react.  no time to plan, just go! and hope and pray i reacted well.  oh, waiting is not an easy thing for someone who despises feeling helpless.  

so what to do?  wait and see where the final battle lines are drawn (and the battle is coming, i can see it building)? or go on with things, getting  ever closer or farther away from where i want to be?  because nothing stays the same.