Come with me if you want to live

that feeling in my stomach.  the one i don't know if i like or not, but whenever it isn't there i miss.  the sensation that my heart may in fact explode. the unexpected, unknown, and unpredictable.   must be an adventure!   class is finally over, and summer is officially allowed to begin!  No more feeling like time spent with friends is time stolen from studying.  It's incredibly freeing to turn in a final exam.  yay for independence! 

i love my parents.  i think they are amazing, but not because they are perfect.  their imperfection becomes more obvious the longer i am home.  gone are the days when i thought they were infallible, but instead of being disillusioned, i see them for who they are.  we've had real conversations, person to person instead of parent to child, and i've been getting to know them in a completely fresh way.  I love it! and it's only the beginning of july, so much is yet to be

i've been wondering what the rest of the summer is going to look like.  there is a lot that could happen, a lot i want to happen, but nothing is certain.  i don't know why, but lately i've really been thinking about how life/ people/ places/ relationships is so uncertain.  nothing stays the same.  a friendship is never where you left it when you go to pick it back up.  things age.  places change.  people die.  it has the potential to be a really bad thing.  but there is also the option to intervene and prevent some of the decay.  it takes some attention, and maybe even work, but it can be done.  if you decide its worth it.  and it usually is.