isn't it crazy how the people you love the most are the ones who can hurt you the worst?
Sunday, July 20, 2008
isn't it ironic
i love my family more than anything in the world. i look forward to going home so much, and guard my time with them like it is precious, because it is. due to a busy school schedule, i don't go home very much, so i try to soak up everything i can when i am with my family. but sometimes i just want to disappear. or better, make them disappear. because for all of the love, they know just what to do to make me the most miserable. in addition to the things said and done directly, its things that no one else would really notice, the glances, subtle pauses in a conversation, the shift in body language, all things that have taken a lifetime to work on and perfect for optimal damage.
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this is so timely! When I read it I said, "aha!" haha, because I was thinking the same thing recently.
I have a friend who is struggling with the same things family-wise. I find it sad that it's true we can hurt those we are closest to the most.
On another level, I find it can be that way with friends or romantic partners...I've discovered that in recent weeks too. It's hard to believe how you can make yourself SO vulnerable only to have someone use that to their advantage. Definitely hurts.
All that to say that I feel ya, girl! You're not alone :)
I hope for your sake that things smooth out and you can just enjoy being with the fam! love.
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