Dawson and Pacey are back! Oh, how i've missed them and their melodrama! So good, so intense. And my test has come and gone, and I passed. I'm trying to be excited about it, but I still can't believe that I could study for something for so many hours and still feel like I've come up short. It's humbling and scary. and yes, i know that makes me a snob. it's just so frustrating to know that i could pour so much effort and time and preparation in to something and it still not be enough. all that business about as long as you tried your best.... just taunts.
but in unrelated, less self pitying news, today post 9 am was wonderful.
the kind of day that makes me want to stay in school forever and never join the 'real' world. it was the kind of day that whispers, yes, your life really is a fairy tale, and you will miss this. wonderful, spur of the moment lunch with people i need so badly but never see enough of. then off to a nap, but not before deciding that my butt is kind of cute, and i like it. and waking up to three in a bed jostling and pushing and all the ruckus that is bound to come when three apologetic, unrestrained girls try to fit in a full bed. and gilmore girls and giggling and then Dawson! and a new car that has so much promise of adventures and ease and the perfect dinner, and now thinking about homework when all i really want is to be with the boy whose smile makes mine bigger.
i was talking to my mother earlier and she asked are things getting serious? and when i asked what does that even mean?, she laughed and said well, that's a no! but i don't know that it really is, which makes me wonder how you know when fondness ends and love begins? it is something that sneaks up, or do you realize it's coming for you?
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"where does fondness end and love begin?"
gosh, I'm dying to know myself--maybe if you find out you can let me know :)
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